About a week ago, I posted a blog all about mindset and focus. It was a big week for me in terms of re-aligning myself with my goals and aspirations. I had spent a ton of time feeding all of my fears and playing out in my head all of the way things could go wrong. So I wanted to catch you guys up on how things have been since that post.
The last few weeks, I was stressing myself out over things that hadn’t even happened yet such as conversations I needed to have such as my time availability at work or my future at my internship. I was convinced every conversation was going to end in people being passive aggressive, angry, or firing me. I already worked myself into thinking I was making all of these wrong decisions in my life so why would I want to put myself in a situation where someone could get mad at me? The only problem was that I felt trapped in life by not dealing with these conflicting feelings I was having.
Thank god, my angel of a mother came to visit me during all of this. The second she showed up, all of my worries and frustrations came falling out in an endless stream of words. One of the first things she said was “Honey, you are putting way to much thought into this”. She helped me understand that by ramping things up in my head that I was just making matters worse for myself. That the problem isn’t as bad as I am making it out to be.
So the day after she left I actually dealt with every single “hard” conversation and task I was worried about. The results were absolutely nothing like I had expected or prepared myself for. The conversation with my boss about my new availability was met with nothing but support and encouragement for my personal endeavors. The conversation about my internship provided me with the most clarity and guidance I have ever had for myself as a musician. The other tasks that I thought were so large have all started to fall into place.
Overall, my entire point is to get out of your freaking head sometimes. Don’t allow yourself to get wrapped up in a problem unless you are actively working towards a solution. Don’t pity yourself. You are actually so much stronger and wiser than you even know. Know if you allow things to align themselves for you and if you take action instead of sitting on your ass while crying that things will work out for you. I say this with no form of judgement, only from very recent realizations and experiences. Don’t be afraid of stepping out of your comfort zone because most of the time it will lead you in the exact direction you need to go.